Hmmm.... Blogging....

Wow.... after reading so many ppl's blog... finally im starting my own.... just hope i can be able to update it regularly... even when the whole blog frenzy started, i was like, who wants to read bout another person's life... as it is its so hard to understand one's own life, but ppl manage to find time to read other ppl's =) i thought it was ridiculous... let see how many ppl actually bother finding out wats goin on in my life... now wat have i got to say??

lets start with my day... yesterday nights dragged me all the way to the wee hours of today morning... think i only got some shut eye around 5 in the morn.... my sleep was disturbed by numerous phone calls... half of them i dont actually remember, i do remember gettin one from my mum, bugging me bout which campus am i gonna stay on for next sem.... then in the end she does add that if i do plan to stay in cyber, its ok with her... i think its cuz she's needs some company... i know once my bro leaves for melaka, she's gonna be all alone with my sis there, doubt they'll be seeing my dad very often... oh well, goin home does sound tempting... but im begining to like stuff in melaka.... the question now is do i like it more than subang??

haha.... Subang or Melaka... if u asked me a few months ago... Subang would've won without a doubt... but lately its got me thinking... c'mon, i love subang... i love the ppl there especially, its really a place i call home... i mean, i can go anywhere and know i might bump into someone i know... nothing like how my life in melaka is =) haha, but then again... i am entering a very serious part in my life... its the time where i have to put a lot of effort into my studies... its vital for my own future... subang's a great place to enjoy, with friends like mine, the fun never ends... but then again, my course is definately not gonna be a walk in the park... im gonna have to put in loads of effort... and im so determined and willing to go all out for it... but does that mean, leaving mum all alone? and being away from my friends for 4 years? i know i know, it does sound a little extreme, but to me it seems like that. even when i do go back now and then, i feel quite lost, as in my friends have gone on living without me, although im still remembered, i feel like if im missing longer, i dont think i can keep up with them.... haiz... so wats keeping me in melaka? the first thing would be the enviroment... its such a quiet easy going life... a small town life... not that hectic... (aside from all the uni work)... wat else? the people? haha... yeah, i guess there are some ppl that i wanna keep on seeing here in melaka too.... dunno if i'll have the chance to if i continue staying in subang....

decisions decisions... haha... i wanna see wats it gonna be... guess it doesnt really matter, the choise this time is not for me to make... i'll just wait, taking in the cool melaka night air... looking out onto IPK... smoking my dunhill lights... listening to Mariah.... damn, its 5 in the morning again.... =) is this the life i want? good question....